The Year She Left Us by Kathryn Ma

book_year_rotated The Year She Left Us: A Novel
by Kathryn Ma

“Knife or scissors.  Scissors or knife.  The question was in my mind even before I knew it was there . . . .

“Knife wants steady.  Ready, aim, chop.  Scissors want strength.  Powerful grip.  Elbow grease.  Clamp shut.  Put your back into it.

“Afterward, what?  Blank, blank, blank.  Blankety-blank.  Fill in the blank.  Soft as a blanket.

“Knife or scissors?  Scissors or knife?


The Year She Left Us, Kathryn Ma’s debut novel, opens with eighteen-year old Ari hacking off her own finger in a hotel bathroom in China, her homeland.  This dramatic opening sets the stage for Ari coming a bit undone – or, really, this act of grotesque self-mutilation is the culmination of her having come undone.

Abandoned as a newborn in a department store in China, as many newborns, especially female newborns, are thanks to China’s one-baby law, Ari (as yet unnamed) is shuttled to an orphanage where she spends the first five months of her life before being adopted by an American woman.  What makes Ari’s adoption unique, aside from the fact that the woman who adopts does so with no husband, is that her adoptive mother is also Chinese – by blood, anyway.  She’s spend her entire life in America, her own mother having escaped China during the war.

Ari is showered with love by her adoptive mother, as well as her grandmother and aunt – it’s nearly like having three mothers.  But there is a hole in Ari that grows as she gets older, and the happy little girl grows into a sullen, morose, and angry teen.  Who were her real parents?  Why didn’t they love her enough to hang onto her?  Throughout her childhood, her adoptive mother, wanting Ari to know and feel connected to her heritage, involves Ari in a playgroup/support group for Chinese adoptees, and a trip at the age of twelve to the town of her birth in China which includes a visit to her orphanage and, quite by accident, the department store where she was abandoned, prove to be a turning point for Ari – and not in a good way.  Her feelings of loss and rootlessness grow; the questions of who she is, where and what she comes from, and where and to whom she belongs are monumental and unanswerable.

Told from the alternating perspectives of Ari, her mother, her aunt, and her grandmother, the reader follows four women who each have secrets, regrets, and grief in their hearts.  Charlie is a successful San Francisco lawyer who lost the love of her life shortly after she adopted Ari, and now she seems to be losing the daughter who has been at the center of her life for eighteen years.  Les is a respected Judge in San Francisco, and both her career ambitions and her long-time affair with a married man have brought her disappointment.  Gran, the matriarch, is both an intimidating and tender woman who sees into Ari’s heart more clearly than anyone else seems to.

Ari’s odyssey to either find herself or make peace with the void that haunts her takes her from San Francisco to Seattle, to Alaska, and back to China where her story began.  The characters and settings are vividly rendered, and the issue the story raises about the potential feelings of disconnectedness and aloneness by international adoptees is intriguing.

tlc-logo-resizedI reviewed this book for TLC Book Tours.

Great novel!


The Roving Tree by Elsie Augustave

RovingTree-545x800 The Roving Tree
by Elsie Augustave

The Roving Tree, Augustave’s debut novel, opens with the surreal scene of a young woman describing her own death shortly after giving birth.  The remainder of the story is told in the voice of Iris Odys from beyond the grave.

Despite its strong opening, I found the rest of the story rather difficult.  After Iris dies, she begins her story with her adoption at the age of five.  Born in Haiti to a poor maid – the product of an illicit liaison between the maid and her well-to-do, married employer – Iris is doomed to a life of poverty, oppression, and mortal danger.  When a white couple from America visits her village of Monn Neg for a research project and offers to take young Iris to America and give her a better life, Iris’s mother accepts.

The story then jumps very quickly from Iris at age of five, acclimating to America and to being a black Haitian child with white parents, to Iris as a young adult.  The majority of the story takes place during the last couple of years of Iris’s life, during which she travels back to Haiti to bury her birth mother, and then to Africa to explore her African roots and attempt to begin a career as a dance instructor.  Iris’s time in both Haiti and Africa are marked by political strife, racism, and classism.  While in Africa, she stumbles into a fate similar to her birth mother’s: an illegitimate, unplanned pregnancy by a married man.

The wide gap of time missing from Iris’s story prevents the story from feeling fully developed.  Additionally, Augustave’s characters seem flat and stunted, and it was thus difficult to become invested in them.  I would have liked the story to delve much more deeply into Iris’s own heart and mind, rather than just using her as a vehicle of observation of people and situations outside of herself.

Nonetheless, Augustave has crafted an interesting story that explores important issues: racial identity and belonging, cultural heritage, and feelings of rootlessness that can come to international adoptees.